Speed Bump

Here I am just going along with life . . things are looking up for me and then it happens . . I hit a speed bump . . or maybe more like a pot hole . . . my rim (pride) is a little bent, my confidence and self esteem low . . (no surprise in that) . . but here is where I am heading with this. . why do women . . OK ME . . why is it I can't seem to wrap my arms around the fact that I have value as a partner in a relationship . .

Deep down I know I do . . . I walk like I have all the self-confidence in the world but inside I am jello . . and no one knows it. . . is this a character flaw? was I just made this way? . . Will I always have self-doubt in myself as a women . . . no self-doubt as a mother . . no self-doubt as grand-mother . . no self-doubt as a great friend . . but doubt as a loving, giving partner . . . .

Maybe God's plan for me is to just be a great single person . . and that will be OK . . . but I have to start believing that doesn't mean failure!